Written by will-c on October 25, 2011, 04:04:24 PM
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I put the can down about 3 months ago and haven't looked back however my low levels of subutex have grown from 4mg to 16mg. I just don't seem to feel them. I have tried to cut the cheeze down but even that can be an 8th a day. In saying that I am doing well. I signed up for the SMART facilitators course. I am half way through and getting there. Relationship is still buggered but still have constant contact with my daughter. I think I will need to write to a tabloid agony aunt on that one.
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Congratulations will, getting the purples ( liquid kind of course ) of your back & out of your system is probably the healthiest thing for you. Try & look at it that way instead of feeling negative about your bupe increasing. One of my mates was ( IMO ) bullied of his bupe script, an old friend of 20+ years. While he was on bupe was the healthiest & most stable I'd ever seen him, didn't touch gear, drink, just a bit of weed & occassionaly a few benzos. Since he's left the CDT he now just stops s [ ... ]
Seems asthough your a bit down Will,just think of your daughter and your get a smile off,as for the drink,well done,your doing well mate,All the best Froude
Drinking is such an insedious bugger, half the time I never used to enjoy it but it was there and conveniant and of course acceptable, when I gave up I couldnt beleive how much better things got a bit like what the fuck was i thinking? Just a quick question how does the subs make you feel? apart from the not being ill is there anything else Im considering it thats all, best of luck with sobriety and Im [ ... ]
I am trying to get through the day without reaching out for an ole purple tin (tenents super lager) For the past few months my drinking has been creeping back in and the problem is I am an unsociable drinker. I dont drink like normal people. Add my units up at the end of the week and it wouldn't be that different to your average fella. However. I drop my daughter off at the child minders and return home to a purple tin and a spliff. I then cycle that off while finding a space for another. This goes on until 3pm-ish until I proper cycle the alcohol out and prepare to pick my daughter up with my ex. My life is a horrible Pinter play at the moment were everything is said without ever being said. I nearly got through the day yesterday and today I am determined to not drink. I am not experiencing any withdrawal symptoms, just spitting feathers.
sick of my life being a mess...
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I am sorry i have not been about had alot going on myself but i just had to reply as on the 25th of may you said you were determind to go through the day without a drink and all i could think is where was the support for you on that day, maybe you PM a few people but i would hate the thought of you clicking back in and not one reply at such a hard time, i hope you did manage and if you didnt no biggy, maybe todays the day, i really wish you all the luck, once you get that one day under your belt [ ... ]
Written by wastedyouthon June 03, 2011, 01:03:25 PM
Will you have put a lot into helping others on this form if there is something you want to talk about, maybe the fact that i think you feel bad because you have had to go up,(im not to fimmiliar with subutex or suboxone)but i do know how it feels to work hard to come down, for things not to go as planned and you have to go back up for whatever reason, dont be hard on yourself, maybe you just asked to much of yourself, maybe you did it to quick at not a great time i dont know but what i do know i [ ... ]
Written by wastedyouthon March 30, 2011, 05:55:08 PM
What's wrong Will? It's been good to see you posting again - let us know how you're getting on.
Written by will-c on February 06, 2011, 10:36:50 AM
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Well I did go to detox but didnt stay long enough to complete the series. I did manage to complete the alcohol detox, get down to 12 mg/ml of linctus then covert to 6 mg of subutex, which went up my nose daily, not the best idea when detoxing but i was so bored, don't go to Passmores house unless you want to be continually labelled and patronised.
I am back at my flat and stablising on 2mg of subutex and 4 when i am messing about but nuttin else
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Hi Will, long time no hear from, - how did you get down from 50mls to 2mg subs? Seems that has happened over just a few months. That is well good - it should not take you long to get off that Will, not from what I you have written about the last time you detoxed on your own. You have amazin stamina - keep that in mind, - and take it easy mate, focus on what you've acheived, - as often what happens with me is that I forget what I have achieved and focus on how shit I am feeling and end up using [ ... ]
sorry to hear things didn't work out the way i expect you hoped it would, but getting off the alchohol is a huge step and should not be overlooked, rehab didnt work for me either. My personnal oppinion is they just dont have a method that works yet, but keep up the good work and if your intention is to come off the subutex completely then you do that when your ready theres no rush, you should be proud of the steps forward you have made already All the best WASTEDYOUTH
Written by wastedyouthon February 11, 2011, 09:03:38 PM
Written by will-c on November 22, 2010, 03:52:19 PM
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I am still on the 60 as in they have been dropping me every two weeks ten mls rather than the 5mls a week I asked for. They said they have sent a new RX out to the PX for this week but I dont get how they are going to do it as tbhey moved me to twice wekly pick up, tuseday and thursday, from 3 times per week monday, wednesday and Friday. I already picked up for today and tommorow, so dont know.
I keep having fights with people over the silliest things, well they seem silly a week later but serious at the time. Like today I had a ding dong with two men who cam to the flats I live to fix the main ariel without telling me, resulting in me not having any TV for two days and having to listen to them banging and drilling all day. I went out and politely asked the guys why we werent notified of such drastic action, he swiped me aside by saying dont ask me speak to teh council, I am a private tenent. Anyway I gave him a mouth full and told them I would rip their ladders of the roof. That shut them up. Its bugging em how quick I am to defend myself lately....
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Interesting read.
Keep in mind that detox and getting your brain chemistry rearranged are similar to fighting off Minor Depression. The symptoms and the underlying chemical processes run side by side.
Small things count. Get exercise when you can. Make sure you stretch out every day -- that assists the lymph system at the task of cleaning you out. Yoga takes a learning period to acquire the benefits, but then it gives a kind of vacation during your workouts. Sunshine is nic [ ... ]
Written by TuffsNotEnuffon December 06, 2010, 04:23:25 PM
I think i am at a similar stage to you at the moment where defending myself comes in i have always been quite a quite addict compaired to some, but recently i have just been feeling a rage, im doing things before i realise ive even done it, then im so angry at myself because i basically just gave them what they wanted, me acting like a scummy junkie, i hate the way i leaves me feeling. I think ive just got to a stage in my life where im fed up saying yes sir, no sir As always wish you wel [ ... ]
Written by wastedyouthon November 22, 2010, 05:10:01 PM
Just a quick question how does the subs make you feel? apart from the not being ill is there anything else Im considering it thats all, best of luck with sobriety and Im 
