Written by will-c on October 25, 2011, 04:04:24 PM
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I put the can down about 3 months ago and haven't looked back however my low levels of subutex have grown from 4mg to 16mg. I just don't seem to feel them. I have tried to cut the cheeze down but even that can be an 8th a day. In saying that I am doing well. I signed up for the SMART facilitators course. I am half way through and getting there. Relationship is still buggered but still have constant contact with my daughter. I think I will need to write to a tabloid agony aunt on that one.
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Drinking is such an insedious bugger, half the time I never used to enjoy it but it was there and conveniant and of course acceptable, when I gave up I couldnt beleive how much better things got a bit like what the fuck was i thinking? Just a quick question how does the subs make you feel? apart from the not being ill is there anything else Im considering it thats all, best of luck with sobriety and Im sure contact with your daughter will be a real help although relationship diffiiculties is a big fat bummer (its a triggger for me ) Peace out homey!!
Seems asthough your a bit down Will,just think of your daughter and your get a smile off,as for the drink,well done,your doing well mate,All the best Froude
Congratulations will, getting the purples ( liquid kind of course ) of your back & out of your system is probably the healthiest thing for you. Try & look at it that way instead of feeling negative about your bupe increasing. One of my mates was ( IMO ) bullied of his bupe script, an old friend of 20+ years. While he was on bupe was the healthiest & most stable I'd ever seen him, didn't touch gear, drink, just a bit of weed & occassionaly a few benzos. Since he's left the CDT he now just stops short of where I get my meth from & visits the off-licence instead. Met him the other day when I was picking up my script & he was picking up his super-strength + cider & went back to his flat with him. Any " Recovery Capital " that he'd gained while stable on bupe has disappeared, the flat was stinking. His drinking is his own business & I wouldn't make an issue of it with him, I did ask if he'd ever presented himself back at the CDT. He told me he had because the mother of his son was telling him that he'd lose access to his young son if he didn't, he told them about his drinking & that he was starting to use gear again. They sent him packing with a self - help book, " So you want to stop drinking " & wouldn't even take a u/s to confirm he was using again. Fat lot of use that is. I wonder if it's because he's re-presenting himself within the year ? I don't like to judge but felt like telling him to get himself back on the bupe, I can only see things going downhill. The book's used to smooth out the foil when he's got gear, I'd imagine that's as much use as it will be to him. Gave him a bag of cheese, which he said would cut down on his drinking for that day anyway. So don't be too hard on yourself because your bupe dose has increased, it's not damaging your health as much as the purples were. Take care mate.
Just a quick question how does the subs make you feel? apart from the not being ill is there anything else Im considering it thats all, best of luck with sobriety and Im sure contact with your daughter will be a real help although relationship diffiiculties is a big fat bummer (its a triggger for me ) 
