Written by victoria-g on May 06, 2009, 08:46:32 PM
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I started using herion at the age of 17 till 23. i had tried many detox programs ( like us all probably ) but each failed .... i know now its because i was not ready to stop. No matter how much pain i put my family through - i couldn't stop, i needed to feed that monster inside. It's only when you stop you feel the pain of what you have done around you - well i did. I had a choice i could get through the guilt and rebuild my trust ..... or i could use again to mask my problems. I finally got off herion when i was admitted to hospital - blood clots in both legs, scepticimia, I couldn't walk or breathe. The hospital gave me 2 paracectamols 4x day !!!
6 weeks in hospital i came home with a new out look. i stayed away from all my old "friends". I met some one and married. every thing was going smooth for me for 4 years, i didn't use once.
Then my husband had a 40ft fall and shattered his pelvis - abroad !! his 1st operation was not a success which led him to have a new titinium leg and a reconstructed pelvis. But it was 3 months before we knew the 1st operation had gone wrong, his doctor was prescribing him 300ml of morphine a day as we had to wait to see if op was a success - regardless to the pain. He drank it all - everyday, mainly as he worked for himself he couldn't be laid up and needed to work pain free. after the 2nd operation - the morphine was stopped. He was still in pain and he was withdrawing. One day i came home and a old friend was sat in my kitchen smoking herion with him. It killed his pain and stopped the withdraw. I sat for a week watching him do it - he couldn't even run it properly. He asked me to do it for him ..... and yes i did run it for him and for me !!
We did this for about 6 months - i knew where we was heading, i knew his business would suffer and his health. We got in at the clinic and was prescribed methadone - 130ml each. In the 8-9 months we have been taking it we have been reducing ourselfs - we are down to 5ml !!! I wouldn't tell anyone to do this, its only because my husband and I have been so determined - that we have other goals in life set too - i think keeping busy as helped alot. There as been days when i have sat doing nothing thinking of withdraw symptoms - but when i am active i have no time to think about it.
I wanted to start this blog so you have some back ground info - but i will continue as i think its important to help people through the same situation. One member Alli encouraged me when i was reducing as we was going through the same - and if i can do that - thats one more person closer to their goal.
my next blog - i am going to go through my symptoms - what i felt as i reduced. At the moment i can say i am restless, not having a good sleeping pattern, but i do get the odd night where i sleep for 8 hours - and not forgetting those restless legs. But hopefully it will be over soon.
Bye for now VG
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Hi Victoria - so glad you are writing a blog about your experience of reducing and getting off the methadone. I'm sure it will be useful for a lot of people - well it has been useful to me already!! Knowing that someone else is attempting to do what I am doing - your experience of it really helps, - it means things are just normal and will end, and just to get that little bit of knowledge can make all the difference I think. Keep writing, alli x
this is the kind of thing i came on this forum for to read about other peoples experiences of reducing off methadone i must say i have to say that you and your partner abviously have very high will power and what use have done in just those few moths is amazing as the person before me said it would be great to hear how you are doing good or bad. I hope it's good though as for all those people that dont beleive that two addicts can do it together would be shocked and it would give me some hope for my relationship, i really do wish you and your partner all the best you sound like a really nice decent couple an insperation.
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